following vocal cord surgery, a facelift on my arytenoid cartilage, with the essential parts of my larynx bonded together by Elmer's Glue that has yet to dry. and a ENT physician who has made speaking (even uttering as much as a monosyllable) extremely STRESSFUL, with his cautions against over-use after i had spoken for a mere 30 seconds.
i have retreated into a silence and succommed to a shyness, no longer fighting it, compensating for it, caving into it, with this most justifiable excuse. still it feels like an excuse.
after going through all of this, this rather complicated and intense ordeal at the Mayo Clinic last week, why should I speak and ruin it all and start from scratch? hopefully i can learn, i can accomplish something this week that i will be able to speak about interminably. this is one challenge i refuse to not win.
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